I got up Sunday morning and took a test to see if I was pregnant or not. I seem to do this every month, two days before my period, I go to the store and I buy a test, take said test, get a negative, wait two days, get Flo, go to pharmacy and refill drugs, start cycle all over again.
Boy was I surprised when I got a slight positive test that morning. So I took a digital test because two tests are better than one and I got the same results. WOO HOO!!!!! BIG FAT POSITIVE!!!!!
Today I went to the doctors office to get some pre-natal vitamins that don't make me so sick and have my blood taken for my official YOU ARE PREGNANT from the doctor. Then I have to go back on Thursday and have the test taken again to make sure my levels are rising. After that I will wait about a week and a half and go get my 1st ultrasound. I am so excited.
And yet, a part of me is sad. See, my sister-in-law can no longer have kids. She had the surgery to remove her stuff back in August. She is still upset about this but coping better everyday. She is fighting for her life her with stage iv colon cancer. I want to shout it from the rooftops but at the same time I don't want her to be miserable.
I was thinking about waiting till I hit 12 weeks and then tell her. I don't know. I will need advise on this one. So if anyone at all reads this blog, stalker or not, please please comment on this one. I really could use some advise here and soon!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
2008 in review
What a year this has been. I will go month by month to recall the highs and lows of the year.
January is always are most hated month. Bear was in the hospital fighting for his life in January of 2005 and 2006. So needless to say, we just have never liked the month. We dread it every year. This year M brought home a nasty flu virus so we were all deadly ill.
February is when M and I celebrated our 6 year anniversary. Nothing else eventful happened this month.
March was Easter and we had a nice time going to our parents house for the holiday.
April was the month that we had to go to Children's in Chicago to get Bear checked out. Normally we would have gone in June but since the school insisted his shunt was malfunctioning, he was acting out and not listening, we had to move the appointment up to make the school happy. I am glad to report that Bear is still, knock on wood, doing well. He still has his attitude and such but I think that is normal for a 4 year old!
May was Bear's 4th birthday. We had a party at the house for family and close friends. It was really nice. It was also Mother's Day so it was sweet getting a plant from Bear.
June was Father's Day. The cross-town classic too! Go CUBS!!!
July was M's birthday. M also went to the races with friends. We bought our first house at the end of this month. Wow what a busy month.
August was when Bear went back to school. Thankfully he got a better teacher this year so school is going so much better than the previous year. My sister in law also had life saving surgery for colon cancer this month as well. Thankfully she survived the surgery and now is getting chemo to fight this nasty, nasty disease.
September was my big trip to Wisconsin to go watch one of the final Cubs games of the season. M had a colon and upper gi test done to make sure he was healthy. (Tests came back good! Sight inflammation in upper gi but he on meds to fix this.)
October was Halloween! Bear dressed up as an air force pilot. Our grass seed got spread but never had time to take and we got our driveway put in.
November was Thanksgiving. We went to my sister's house this year as we go every other year to see both sides fairly. The nation also elected the first african-american man as president.
December was my birthday and Christmas. We had a wonderful month spending time with family and friends. I am looking forward to New Year's tomorrow. We have a bunch of friends coming over to ring in the New Year.
Overall, this was a great year. We tried for 5 out of 12 months with medicine to get pregnant with no luck. Here is to hoping that the 5th month, December, will take and we will get pregnant. Bear keeps asking and asking for a brother or sister. I am starting to feel like a failure since I haven't been able to get pregnant again.
I wish everyone a Happy New Year! I hope 2009 is everything you all want it to be and more.
January is always are most hated month. Bear was in the hospital fighting for his life in January of 2005 and 2006. So needless to say, we just have never liked the month. We dread it every year. This year M brought home a nasty flu virus so we were all deadly ill.
February is when M and I celebrated our 6 year anniversary. Nothing else eventful happened this month.
March was Easter and we had a nice time going to our parents house for the holiday.
April was the month that we had to go to Children's in Chicago to get Bear checked out. Normally we would have gone in June but since the school insisted his shunt was malfunctioning, he was acting out and not listening, we had to move the appointment up to make the school happy. I am glad to report that Bear is still, knock on wood, doing well. He still has his attitude and such but I think that is normal for a 4 year old!
May was Bear's 4th birthday. We had a party at the house for family and close friends. It was really nice. It was also Mother's Day so it was sweet getting a plant from Bear.
June was Father's Day. The cross-town classic too! Go CUBS!!!
July was M's birthday. M also went to the races with friends. We bought our first house at the end of this month. Wow what a busy month.
August was when Bear went back to school. Thankfully he got a better teacher this year so school is going so much better than the previous year. My sister in law also had life saving surgery for colon cancer this month as well. Thankfully she survived the surgery and now is getting chemo to fight this nasty, nasty disease.
September was my big trip to Wisconsin to go watch one of the final Cubs games of the season. M had a colon and upper gi test done to make sure he was healthy. (Tests came back good! Sight inflammation in upper gi but he on meds to fix this.)
October was Halloween! Bear dressed up as an air force pilot. Our grass seed got spread but never had time to take and we got our driveway put in.
November was Thanksgiving. We went to my sister's house this year as we go every other year to see both sides fairly. The nation also elected the first african-american man as president.
December was my birthday and Christmas. We had a wonderful month spending time with family and friends. I am looking forward to New Year's tomorrow. We have a bunch of friends coming over to ring in the New Year.
Overall, this was a great year. We tried for 5 out of 12 months with medicine to get pregnant with no luck. Here is to hoping that the 5th month, December, will take and we will get pregnant. Bear keeps asking and asking for a brother or sister. I am starting to feel like a failure since I haven't been able to get pregnant again.
I wish everyone a Happy New Year! I hope 2009 is everything you all want it to be and more.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Almost Christmas
Bear and I have been baking cookies for the past few days. Since M has to work straight through Christmas, I thought it would be fun to bake stuff with him every day so that we have something to do.
It is far too cold outside to go out and play in the ice/snow. I really hate the sub-zero weather. Too bad I don't live somewhere where it is 60's year round. That would be so nice.
Today is D-day for me. As of this moment I have not had that lovely visit from Flo yet. I have been tracking and tracking and tracking for the past year at this website. One calendar says I am two days late while another says I should get it today. So I guess we will see. M says he had a dream the other night that I called him at work on Christmas Day to tell him I was. Gosh I hope that happens. Bear really wants a brother or sister. But I guess it really is out of my hands.
Well, time to bake more cookies and brownies. In case I can't get on here again this week, I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Let's hope 2009 gives us all the peace, guidance and happiness we are looking for!
It is far too cold outside to go out and play in the ice/snow. I really hate the sub-zero weather. Too bad I don't live somewhere where it is 60's year round. That would be so nice.
Today is D-day for me. As of this moment I have not had that lovely visit from Flo yet. I have been tracking and tracking and tracking for the past year at this website. One calendar says I am two days late while another says I should get it today. So I guess we will see. M says he had a dream the other night that I called him at work on Christmas Day to tell him I was. Gosh I hope that happens. Bear really wants a brother or sister. But I guess it really is out of my hands.
Well, time to bake more cookies and brownies. In case I can't get on here again this week, I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Let's hope 2009 gives us all the peace, guidance and happiness we are looking for!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Are you kidding me?
So yesterday it broke that the Governor of Illinois got arrested and charged with trying to sell President-Elect Obama's Senate seat. I am in complete shock over this. I know that times are hard but really selling a Senate seat to the highest bidder was really dumb.
I mean come on now, he knew for years that he was being investigated by the FBI!!! What were you thinking? And to have back to back Governor's get charged with crimes is just unheard of. But what doesn't surprise me at all is the fact that the media and FBI are fairly certain they know who the mysterious Senate Candidate 5 is. What a shocker here.....it is Jessie Jackson Jr. I have never like his father for the simple fact that at times he acts like he is above the law. It makes perfect sense that his boy wanted to get into the Senate and was willing to "pay" whatever it took to get that seat. Well, I guess the Governor, Jessie Jr. and Jessie Sr. can all share a cell together.
What really upset me with this whole situation was the fact that Children's Memorial Hospital, the very hospital my son has gone too and has doctors we see yearly at, asked the State of Illinois for $8 million in State funding for which I am sure they were going to use towards the new hospital they are building or for upgrades/repairs to the current hospital. Well, Greedy Governor Rod, decided to make a quick buck and thankfully the hospital didn't bite the bait. They refused, by not returning calls, to give him $50,000 for that money. Now I know you are probably thinking, that doesn't sound too bad, well here is the kicker, Rod never planned on giving the hospital that money. He wanted his $50,000 and then was going to come up with some reason, economy, budget problems, etc. to not have to give them the money.
As a parent of a child that goes to that hospital you should be ashamed of yourself Mister Governor!!!! That hospital is the BEST children's hospital in the U.S. if not the world. How dare you take from my child or another parents child so you can get a quick buck! I would have had sympathy for you in your situation until I heard this. While I don't hate anyone or wish ill upon anyone, I do hope that they throw your butt in jail just on this charge alone. I pray that your daughters never need medical care from that hospital but if they do, I wish they could deny you service to show you what as ASS you are for trying to take away from those kids! Then again, as of last night, it was not made clear if the hospital was getting the State funding or not. For the sake of my son and children like him I hope and pray that they get the much needed money!
Though the only positive thing I can find in this is how the FBI handled the situation. Rather than break down the door and alert his daughters to what was going on, the guy in charge placed a call to his home, explained the situation and asked him to come outside and give himself up. Thankfully those kids knew nothing of what happened. Kudos to the FBI for realizing that their were kids involved in that situation and doing what was best for those kids.
Well, that makes me feel better. I am not stupid, I know that corruption and crap is going on in politics all over the country. Some get caught and some can go years and years with out every getting caught. All I can say is sadly this is a part of our lives and no matter how disappointed we are about the situation and think the man should resign, it will happen again.
I mean come on now, he knew for years that he was being investigated by the FBI!!! What were you thinking? And to have back to back Governor's get charged with crimes is just unheard of. But what doesn't surprise me at all is the fact that the media and FBI are fairly certain they know who the mysterious Senate Candidate 5 is. What a shocker here.....it is Jessie Jackson Jr. I have never like his father for the simple fact that at times he acts like he is above the law. It makes perfect sense that his boy wanted to get into the Senate and was willing to "pay" whatever it took to get that seat. Well, I guess the Governor, Jessie Jr. and Jessie Sr. can all share a cell together.
What really upset me with this whole situation was the fact that Children's Memorial Hospital, the very hospital my son has gone too and has doctors we see yearly at, asked the State of Illinois for $8 million in State funding for which I am sure they were going to use towards the new hospital they are building or for upgrades/repairs to the current hospital. Well, Greedy Governor Rod, decided to make a quick buck and thankfully the hospital didn't bite the bait. They refused, by not returning calls, to give him $50,000 for that money. Now I know you are probably thinking, that doesn't sound too bad, well here is the kicker, Rod never planned on giving the hospital that money. He wanted his $50,000 and then was going to come up with some reason, economy, budget problems, etc. to not have to give them the money.
As a parent of a child that goes to that hospital you should be ashamed of yourself Mister Governor!!!! That hospital is the BEST children's hospital in the U.S. if not the world. How dare you take from my child or another parents child so you can get a quick buck! I would have had sympathy for you in your situation until I heard this. While I don't hate anyone or wish ill upon anyone, I do hope that they throw your butt in jail just on this charge alone. I pray that your daughters never need medical care from that hospital but if they do, I wish they could deny you service to show you what as ASS you are for trying to take away from those kids! Then again, as of last night, it was not made clear if the hospital was getting the State funding or not. For the sake of my son and children like him I hope and pray that they get the much needed money!
Though the only positive thing I can find in this is how the FBI handled the situation. Rather than break down the door and alert his daughters to what was going on, the guy in charge placed a call to his home, explained the situation and asked him to come outside and give himself up. Thankfully those kids knew nothing of what happened. Kudos to the FBI for realizing that their were kids involved in that situation and doing what was best for those kids.
Well, that makes me feel better. I am not stupid, I know that corruption and crap is going on in politics all over the country. Some get caught and some can go years and years with out every getting caught. All I can say is sadly this is a part of our lives and no matter how disappointed we are about the situation and think the man should resign, it will happen again.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Random thoughts
My birthday is tomorrow. I used to get all excited about it but a couple years ago my sister in law got diagnosed with colon cancer a few days after my birthday. Ever since then I just don't have the same heart and excitement like I used to. Well I am sure the fact that I am getting closer to 30 isn't helping much either.
We went out with some friends on Saturday for my birthday. It was fun for the most part. M and I went with a couple friends we haven't really talked to or hung out with in a few months to Olive Garden for dinner. From there we went to Bullpen, a local bar, to play darts where a few more friends met up with us. Everything was going great till we switched to another bar closer to home. I swear to you, if looks could kill, I would have died that night. As I walked into the bar and went to sit down this girl that I have not seen or talked to in over a year gave me the dirtiest look. I was polite and said hi to her and she shrugged her shoulders and snottily said "HI" back.
Needless to say, the rest of the night she was giving me dirty looks and asking a mutual friend that was there why I was there and if she had known I was going to be there she would not have gone out.
Ok, first things first, I did nothing to this girl, she lives over an hour from where I do and we were never really close in the first place. We drifted apart June of 2007 and like I said I have not seen her really since then. Why then did she feel the need to have such an attitude with me, ESPECIALLY when she knew I was there celebrating my birthday with friends. It really just bothers me. I guess if I knew why she was so angry with me it would make me feel better.
But enough on that, today has been a rather lazy day. Bear, what we call my son, went to school happy as a clam. The minute I picked him up he has been whinning and moaning about every little thing. So much for a peaceful lazy day. I think it is just the weather. It has been snowing here pretty much every other day since right before Thanksgiving. Problem is we only get a dusting or 2 inches at most. Not enough to build a snowman like he wants too.
Well this is enough venting for now. I will post more later. Hope you all have a great week!
We went out with some friends on Saturday for my birthday. It was fun for the most part. M and I went with a couple friends we haven't really talked to or hung out with in a few months to Olive Garden for dinner. From there we went to Bullpen, a local bar, to play darts where a few more friends met up with us. Everything was going great till we switched to another bar closer to home. I swear to you, if looks could kill, I would have died that night. As I walked into the bar and went to sit down this girl that I have not seen or talked to in over a year gave me the dirtiest look. I was polite and said hi to her and she shrugged her shoulders and snottily said "HI" back.
Needless to say, the rest of the night she was giving me dirty looks and asking a mutual friend that was there why I was there and if she had known I was going to be there she would not have gone out.
Ok, first things first, I did nothing to this girl, she lives over an hour from where I do and we were never really close in the first place. We drifted apart June of 2007 and like I said I have not seen her really since then. Why then did she feel the need to have such an attitude with me, ESPECIALLY when she knew I was there celebrating my birthday with friends. It really just bothers me. I guess if I knew why she was so angry with me it would make me feel better.
But enough on that, today has been a rather lazy day. Bear, what we call my son, went to school happy as a clam. The minute I picked him up he has been whinning and moaning about every little thing. So much for a peaceful lazy day. I think it is just the weather. It has been snowing here pretty much every other day since right before Thanksgiving. Problem is we only get a dusting or 2 inches at most. Not enough to build a snowman like he wants too.
Well this is enough venting for now. I will post more later. Hope you all have a great week!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
New to this
So I have been in a slump lately. I decided that I should blog about it and see if that can help make me feel better. I am sure no one will read this but hey it may work right.
My biggest low right now is that I really want to have another baby. My son is 4.5 yrs old. He wants a brother or sister to play with and for some reason I just can't get pregnant again. I have been on Clomid now for 4 months. Well, I took the first dose in January, second in July and third in August. I just started taking it again this month. So I guess I will find out in a few weeks if it worked but I am sure it won't. I just frustrates me that everyone and their brother can get pregnant and here I have been off birth control for 5 years and nothing. What the heck!!! Maybe it just isn't meant to be.
The economy is not helping my slump either. My hubby, I will call him M, works at a rail yard. Well, if people don't buy then companies don't ship and if companies don't ship trains and semis don't need to be loaded and unloaded. I miss the days of him working 60 hrs. a week. Now we are lucky to get 32 hours a week. I know that is more than some get so I guess I shouldn't complain. However, I refuse to watch the news any longer. If I really have to hear about one more company going to Congress for money I am going to scream. Here is a thought, why not give billions of dollars to the citizens of the United States and maybe the economy will get jump started again.
Other parts of my life are going well, so I do have that going for me. I am happy to report that I have about 16 more months left of school. It has taken me a long time to get my degree but I am so proud of myself that I am almost there. May of 2010 can't come fast enough for me.
Can't think of anything else to write at the moment so I will leave it at this and see what happens. If you happen to read this thanks. I am sure I will have better things to blog about but right now my slump is just not letting me.
My biggest low right now is that I really want to have another baby. My son is 4.5 yrs old. He wants a brother or sister to play with and for some reason I just can't get pregnant again. I have been on Clomid now for 4 months. Well, I took the first dose in January, second in July and third in August. I just started taking it again this month. So I guess I will find out in a few weeks if it worked but I am sure it won't. I just frustrates me that everyone and their brother can get pregnant and here I have been off birth control for 5 years and nothing. What the heck!!! Maybe it just isn't meant to be.
The economy is not helping my slump either. My hubby, I will call him M, works at a rail yard. Well, if people don't buy then companies don't ship and if companies don't ship trains and semis don't need to be loaded and unloaded. I miss the days of him working 60 hrs. a week. Now we are lucky to get 32 hours a week. I know that is more than some get so I guess I shouldn't complain. However, I refuse to watch the news any longer. If I really have to hear about one more company going to Congress for money I am going to scream. Here is a thought, why not give billions of dollars to the citizens of the United States and maybe the economy will get jump started again.
Other parts of my life are going well, so I do have that going for me. I am happy to report that I have about 16 more months left of school. It has taken me a long time to get my degree but I am so proud of myself that I am almost there. May of 2010 can't come fast enough for me.
Can't think of anything else to write at the moment so I will leave it at this and see what happens. If you happen to read this thanks. I am sure I will have better things to blog about but right now my slump is just not letting me.
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